As most of you know me only by this virtual medium called internet. So it is obvious to develope own thinking about me. Some says its too good to find out me as a mate and some treat like beast on the earth(lolz). But I think myself a ordinary man with extra ordinary thoughts. Yeah of course being a human being I too do some mishapening in life. But eventualy I avoid to do so.
It's difficult to keep onself away from the slight swell of pride that comes once in a while with an achivement. Similerly, it's difficult to keep the greeninsh tinge of envy at bay if something or possesses something better... So is the case with lust, anger, avarice, gluttony and sloth. Let's be honest, it's natural; after all, we are all human and vulnerable by nature to commit sin. These biblical seven sins can't be easily given a dodge by its residents!
I'm a little unconvinced; it can't be possible that a guy can ever be a complete goody-two-shoes... After all, men are men. "Yeah, I have commited some small sins that anybody else must have.. like cheating during class tests, smoking a cigarette secretly as a teenager, having drink and getting tipsy... I have done all the normal things that any young chap is likely to do."
Actually, I have done one really nasty thing as a kid. I had a professor whome I was very fond of and vice versa. As my dad was a reputed civil engineer in small city, So he is well known by society. So my teacher happend to be big fan and just order to speak to him he would call up often to give false complaints to my daddy... Stuff like I had not completed my homework and I wasn't paying attention and so on... which was totally false. He also told him that I am comfy amongs the girls of class, as I was in 4th std, So it wasn't my fault or sexual things at all that those small girls used to like me as friend. One day my dad got irritatted and scolded me severely about having to hear complaints about me almost everyday. I was obviously furious and in a rage I went and punctured my professor's bajaj scooter! The next day I learnt that he was in hospital because of a fracture, which had obviously been caused by the punctured tyre. I felt really bad and instantly went and apologised...I think that was the meanest and worst sin I have ever commited.
Now that's pretty honest, and before I can loose the tone of candour, I quickly move on to the seven deadly sins- Pride, Avarice, Wrath, Sloth, Gluttony, Lust and Envy.
Pride
I think pride is something really negative. For me personally, I don't think I have any pride. It all depends on how you are brought up. My mumma always tells me one thing... as the tree grows and starts bearing fruits the more it bows down towards its roots. Similerly as man achieves success in life, as he become big, he also needs to become more humble. Thanks to my upbringing, I'll always have a down to earth attitude. Sometimes self-confidence can easily be mistaken for pride and arrogance. Also, There is thin line between being proud of oneslef, which is very essential for further growth, and being arrogant. Being self-confident and proud of one's achivements only helps develope one's career and inspires one to do better in future and move ahead to another level. I am pretty proud of the fact that I have managed to survive in this downsizing IT Industry so far. You know, there were many questions about me... whether I would go for Army as i was fascinated since childhood but couldn't qualify NDA Entrance, if I would be able to do engineering like my dad, if I would manage to survive. So obviously feel happy when you come such a long way without any support. It helps boost you confidance further. But yeah, it's upsetting if translated as pride.
Envy
"I think every man should be content with what he has, because if you are not content with what life gives you, you won't be able to appriciate even the smallest pleasures of life. Also, its hust ruins your ability to think rationally . Thankfully, God has been very kind to this Srivastava family. We have alwyas had enough, so there has never been an envious feeling towards anyone ever...I have never really been jealous of anybody - except for my elder sister. As she is one yr elder than me, she was usually most pampered one...so I used to be jealous of her, but in a good way!"
Lust
(lolz..) I'm a normal man, who wants to be loved...but please, I'm not a sex maniac or womenizer! Being a normal human being, you'r bound to get attrected to pretty girls.. but I don't think I will call it lust. It can be infatuation; lusting is creepy. Lust is about wanting to get physical with everyone you see... you are sex maniac then. Yes, I do get attrected to gorgeous woman, but that's because I'm completely normal. That doesn't mean I want to take each one of them to bed, tough! And I know people wouldn't beleive but it's true I am a virgin guy.
Warth
Now thats something I need to work on. I'm little short-tempered. I lose my cool easily. But my anger is not in order to hurt someone; I generally get angry out of excitement or fear. Fear especially for my loved ones. Like the other day, I saw my younger cousine crossing the road and there was car coming towards him, but he was not paying attention..so my immediate reaction was to slap him hard. I was angry because I was concerned for him. Also my fury doesn't last for too long and I immediatly apologise to the person who has borne the brunt of my warth. Generally I get upset with my surroundings and with myself if I have not done my work properly. Sometime I use my staff as scapegoat, because if I'm angry with someone else who has made me upset, and if I can't directly tell them about their mistake. However, I ensure that I do say sorry soon after. So I think getting angry is my weakness; I need to keep my calm in some situations.
Avarice
Like I said earlier, I'm a content being, so there is no question of feeling greedy. I'm happy with what I have and I relly thank God for whatever he has offered ne and my family. Of course, I want more, I desire to do better and I wish to work with bigger persons and do better in all my work. But that I shall not call greed...that's ambition. Even as a child, my parents had provided us with almost everything so there was never a feeling of wanting something that someone else had. I remember, as a kid, there was this very expensive game called Sega that was too hot in those days and I wanted to be first in my class to get that... At that time it cost Rs. 10,000 or so. I had really wanted that game and at that time this was expensive game price for my father but I remember I demanding that game from him. He didn't say a word at that time, he only smiled. Soon after , he went to delhi or lucknow for some official work and when he returned he handed over a huge packet to my sister and me. It was the game I wanted! You can't imagine how delighted I was. I still have that game with me. This is not a single incident It happens a lots if time. During school days I had best one bags, pencils, staionary, accessories, simply we always got attention from surroundings since childhood. So you see, thankfully, we have got what we had desired, so there has never been a feeling of greed. I have wonderful family, I'm getting work, so why should I ask for anything more?
Sloth
I'm, in general, not a lazy person; in fact, I'm pretty hard-working. I respect a love my job my company my work so there is no question of not wanting to give my 100% at work. Also I'm a God-fearing person. I don't go too much to a particuler place or tample everyday to pray, but do wake up every morning remembering Him and asking for His blessings and every night before sleeping I do thank Him for everything that He given me. I have great faith in Shirdi Sai Baba and we usually go Shirdi once in a year. I always try to get opprtunity to go there because I love to be around Him. Also I'm a Hanuman bhakt. whenever I get time I go to the SAI temple at BTM. I sit there and disconnect from the rest of world. I respect all the religion because I think "GOD is too big to be fit into one religion"
Gluttony
The only temptation for me is mousse. I don't like sweets too much but I love that soft fluffy taste of Strawberry mousse. I just can't keep away from it! I love nuts and dryfruits too and can eat loads of it. Now I'm not supposed to eat too many such type of things but I buy lots of them and keep them in my room...my couboard is fillled with chocolates and nuts and fruit-flavoured candies. whenever my sister's daughter Ana come home I give her lots of these things; else they can simply lie with me till they cross their expiray date.
The verdict has to be saint over sinner. Unless there's seamier stuff that SuperByte is keeping stashed away in his closet, besides innocent chocolates!
